Another day down

Yo mother dear,

Gonna be a short post today.  Don’t know why, but today has been difficult.  I have been thinking about you all damn day.  So I am going to say my peace for the day and hope to move on.  It has been a sad day for sure.  Started out this morning when I woke up and just felt down.  Then I had this momentary panic when I had the though that I should tell you I plan on going to SLO tomorrow and quickly realize how silly that was.  Those moments where I forget that you are gone are the worst.  I don’t even know why that happens.  It’s only for a split second of course, but long enough to really make me sad.

It was a hot day today.  Dunno why the heat is back, but it needs to be gone.  Looking at the forecast, it doesn’t look like the heat will stick around.  That is a good thing.  All I wanted to do today after I got home from the gym was take a nap and it was just too uncomfortable to do that successfully.

I just went uptown to get a subway sandwich and decided to go to the one near the civic center.  The parking lot was jam packed.  I was thinking, “What are all these cars doing here.”  Apparently the civic center puts on a concert (I guess on wed nights) during august and september.  I am not sure if you ever knew about these, but I know that you would have like it.  Tonight’s entertainment was some young (high school age maybe) jazz band.  That is right up your alley.  I listened for a bit and couldn’t help think about how much you would enjoy something like this and why we didn’t know about it before so that we could have gone to them.  I am sure you would have loved to get yourself a starbucks and then sit for a while and listen to some music.

Anyway, I doubt I will post anything in the next day or two as I will be out of town.  I am looking forward to going up to SLO.  I have arranged to meet up with friends there and I am hoping that I can just get away for a bit from the worries here.  Not sure if that will happen, but I am certainly going to try.

After I get… Not sure what I was going to say here.  Jodi just called and I had a little boo hoo session with her.  She said that she woke up this morning and was really sad for some reason as well.  She said that she wore dad’s watch and your ring and that gave her the strength to get off to work today, but that she was really close to just calling in sick because she was feeling so down.

Anyway I have to end this now mom.  I just gotta move past today somehow.  I will talk at ya when I get back from my mini-vaca.

Love you and miss you!