I guess you can tell by the series of posts today that I have been in a strange mood. I made copies of files from my mother’s computer because a disk error message popped up and I did not want to chance losing something I might need from there. Anyway, in the batch of things I pulled off her computer was a folder full of pictures from, what I am guess is when they got their camera, the past several years. As I was going through them, I found some that really made me feel good. I needed that!
Today is October 7th. I don’t expect anyone reading this to know without me saying it, that the 7th of the month is kind of a big deal now. My father passed away on April 7th and my mother passed away on September 7th. Yes, not only did they ruin Monday’s and Tuesday’s, but they cut out the 7th as well. Too bad really, 7 is suppose to be a lucky number.
Here is another strange things about the number 7. My parents like to go to the casino’s. My father was rarely lucky, but my mother usually left with more than she went with, especially if her nephew was around 🙂 Anyway, being casual gamblers, they would appreciate that in their deaths they managed to hit the jackpot. They are both buried in plot number 7. 777 = Jackpot!
Doesn’t seem like much of a jackpot from my perspective, but hey, my perspective is slightly skewed at the moment. The past couple of days have been sort of downer days for me. Just been in a slump. Spending the afternoon with the lawyer and finding out that there is a hiccup in the estate junk didn’t help. It will turn out just fine and isn’t really all that big of a deal, just takes time and more money to sort out. Anyway, the ‘Grief Attacks’ have been happening a bit more frequently in the last few days. Not sure why, but might have to do with anticipating today. I’m sure one of these days, the 7th will fly by unnoticed and that would be good.
The day started out alright as I was looking forward to my appointment with the grief counselor, but then I looked at the appointment card again and realized that the appointment is tomorrow 🙁
I did manage to keep my mind busy for a while today by planning a trip I will be taking in two weeks. I am going to head out on a little road trip, stopping in Arizona then heading up to Utah and finally over to Nevada to spend some time with my sister. I am looking forward to this trip, but not looking forward to driving. Too many crazies on the road. Plus I really don’t like being stuck in a car. I think my parents would get a kick out of me driving that distance. They hated taking me on road trips about as much as I hated going on them. However, I am excited to see family along the way and give some big ol’ hugs to each of them.
For now, I continue to plug away at each day. Trying to stay busy with things like working whenever I get the chance. Taking care of things that need to be done around the house, stupid weeds and dishes… where do they come from? And of course posting on this blog. There are lots more pictures to go through and who knows I might even muster the will to put together a video for mom like the one I did for dad.