Hey mom,
The heat today is just miserable. Temperature right now is 99 degrees with 33% humidity. I went uptown for a bit to get some froyo and read ‘The Paper”. I didn’t expect it to have your death notice in it, but it did. That was a little sad to see. Afterward I stopped by the mortuary to pick up your death certificates. We got 10 copies of dad’s and didn’t use half of them so I got only 5 copies of yours. I probably should have gotten 10 so that I could avoid that dadgum Murphy’s Law.
Anyway, since I am sitting here with nothing to do but sweat, I figured I might as well let you know how I am not liking the way you left things. Don’t you have any way to make the weather nicer? I know you like the heat and all, but I don’t and since you aren’t here to enjoy it perhaps it can just go away.
You know that my emotions are all over the place right now and you also know that I have a tendency to get inside my head and think things to death. Well there is something that has been bugging me since before you passed and I need to just write it down and let go of it. Anyone who knew you well knew that you were not a litigious person. That you thought there was too much suing going on in this world. If I didn’t know how you would feel about it and if we hadn’t made a critical mistake, I have half a mind to go after the hospital. By the way, never did understand how you were so against frivolous lawsuits and yet spent hours each day watching those judge shows. Oh, Jodi found your daytime TV watching cheat sheet. I know that your memory was not great towards the end, but it makes me sad to think you needed to make yourself a cheat sheet and even more sad to realize that you probably forgot you made it. Anyway, it was stuffed inside a book.
Back to the topic at hand. I will put all this down in another post, but I am really upset by what the hospital did and did not do for you. I think it is unacceptable for that to happen and I just don’t know what to do about it. I mean, I cannot change what happened and I suppose you would tell me just to let it go, but I am having a difficult time letting it go. I know that we weren’t going to change the end result, but we could have changed how we got there. Like I said though, that will be for a different post. It will be a long post on its own, don’t need to make this one even longer.
Still missing you…